How do you know for sure? I mean, how do you really know?
The word love has come out of my mouth so many times before. Sometimes I really thought it was love, sometimes I really wanted it to be love, and sometimes I knew that it wasn't...But I said it anyway. I've even been married (and still am though legally separated). So how do I know if it's real? My symptoms include but are not limited to:
The inability to think about anyone else in a romantic manner: Sure, I still think about other people as far as attraction, and sometimes even in a sexual manner, but not romantic-ly. I even have those stupid awake-dreams where I sit and think up situations, like buying a house and having children with this person.
The inability to forget: Usually, when a relationship ends, it's not long before my mind is elsewhere. Sometime consuming hobby, or loads and loads of casual sex- and pretty soon any romantic inclinations fade away. This person and I have not broken up, we haven't even been together, yet I can not focus my main attentions on much of anything else.
Faithfulness: In the early stages of this...whatever it is... I tried to just let it go and move on. I continued my usual sex routine and even dated (and almost moved in with) a guy from town. But even while with him, my mind was on this other person. And pretty soon, I didn't want to be with him anymore. I didn't want to move in with him. Now, I will not have sex, with ANYONE because I feel as though it is cheating (even though this person and I are not dating).
Stupidity: I will say the most stupid, cheesiest things, in public. Things that make people give you a double take. I am in that state of clumsy, stupid, bewildered, mind melting, brains to mush coma. My intelligence has diverted to little more than romantic-comedy soup. Sweet, savory, love soup. O.o
Lapses of time: This obsession has been going on since last year, and slowly growing worse and worse.
Lack of independence: I rely completely on this person. I used to make up my own mind. When did that change? And did it change for the better?
Ok, end of stupid, pointless, cheesy post. It's better than the anti-religious emo-fest I was originally going to post. So yeah....